To You up there and to you who I never forgot:

Thank you. I have no words to do justice to the emotions i feel. Thank you for it all. Maybe it was all a coincidence, but I believe again.

Eternally grateful,
Me

I miss you. I understand everything you said, everything you felt. And I still miss you. I cover it up, I put on a smile, I laugh and pretend nothings wrong.. You'll always be a wonderful memory.

I really do miss you.

          

How do you really know what's right to do, sometimes? When your heart tells you to do something, is it wrong to not act upon it instinctively? Why must we double guess everything, think and re-think the simplest situations to come to a decision?

I thought this was a wonderful movie. Maybe its just the state of mind I was in when I was watching it, maybe its just the romantic in me, maybe its just because I believe there's a thing such as true love out there.. or maybe its all of the above. But I loved the movie.

It seems strangely fitting, the title. Not just for the movie, just to my life. Away We Go. Except there really isn't a 'we'. Its just me. But the 'we' fits perfectly. I don't feel alone. I have someone looking out for me, someone teaching me how to deal with all of it. And He's wonderful. He brings you to it, and He leads you through it. I just had to look for the path.

And so, away we go. There are so many changes I've seen along the way, so many that I'm introducing into my life, and so many lessons I'm learning along the way. Yes, there are feelings that might never go away, thoughts that will still come up every few days and make me cringe with the pain, places and gestures and mannerisms that will make my lips curve into a smile only to realize that I may not see them anymore; there is a part of me that will surface and make me feel like I was wrong to close my eyes and let myself be led away blindly.

But despite all these things, Away We Will Go. Suddenly, it seems wrong that on the one hand, I believe that meaning well, having faith never goes unrewarded.. while on the other hand I make no effort to get myself on my feet. Its just wrong. You can't just have faith and sit around waiting for things to happen, for a miracle to come and sweep you off your feet. You've got to do what you can to keep yourself happy.

Because you enjoy life, and miss someone. Its not wrong, it doesn't make the love we have any less than it was. If anything, it makes it so much stronger. Simply because you took that one step towards putting a smile on your face. Then its all right to hope, to have faith.

So then, away we go.